Process…

 I have to process what happened since everything was going right and then crashed, burned, and has to be rebuilt. 

We could start from the very beginning but I would never finish. Let’s start from what’s fresh in the brains trauma factory. 

I spent many days in the hospital last month surviving, trying to do everything in my power to stay alive. I have friends, family, and my husband and children who need me. I saw all of those people as a purpose to fight. They are worthy of winning the hardest battles. The only person I was actually saving, was myself. I didn’t think about that person. The one I wake up with every day, the only person that knows me and what I’m thinking and feeling in the darkest depths of my soul. I have to survive so I can learn to live, live with myself. Love myself, continue to work on myself. Evolve myself, if I can do that, I’m teaching those I love and survey for how to do the same. So? I wrote down 4 words..

Process. Create. Save. Learn. 

I will use these words as affirmations to remember what I need to do for myself; to love others the most. Because I do. I love you all the most. 

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