Actions and words speak at about the same tone.

Running as fast and far away as I can just to feel like a deer in head lights again.

Another subtle reminder of what once was without hesitation or consideration of my feelings then and even now. 

I always look for the best in someone especially when they are at their worst. I have no idea what is really going on unless I ask. I cannot judge a person based on their actions alone. 

Actions speak louder than words...
But words are incredibly powerful. 

I hope one day to be remembered as the person I have spent my entire life striving to become, the person I am now. Or that people will try and understand why I made/make some of the mistakes or choices. 

I guess I am going about it all wrong. I should remind people more often of the negative things they did once upon a time. But I won't. 

I'm an open book and will tell you my story, if you ever care to ask. 

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