Super Fantastic Nothings or Somethings

I'm totally biased but Jane is absolutely the coolest kid around and when she comes home crying about not having many friends, it breaks my heart in to pieces. She held herself together until she saw me and the tears poured down her face. She recently became friends with a little girl because the little girl is teased and didn't have any friends either.  Third grade has been tough on Jane and dealing with her own insecurities and self confidence makes having friends very important because she wants to feel part of a group or included. Jane asked me to have lunch with her at school yesterday. It meant the world to me that she wanted to acknowledge me at school and as difficult as it was to plan around having a sick kid at home and a needy three year old, I knew I needed to make the time for her. I'm so glad I made it to lunch because I saw a little glimpse of what she goes through everyday. I noticed her anxiety as soon as we walked into the lunch room.  She wal...

When I was a little philly, I day dreamed about being an adult and married with a cute cape cod and some really cute kids living in it. I always thought I would have a really trendy career and my husband would have a 9-5 gig.  I don't have the trendy career, I am a proud stay at home mom and my husband has a trendy bar tending job and drives for UBER and LYFT on the side. I have the cute cape cod and the cute kids. I am definitely blessed. Here's the thing! I came from a broken home. A lot of kids come from broken homes. I made a bunch of mistakes as a young person, I still make the occasional bad choice as an adult. I do however fix them or deal with them. No excuses! Why can't others realize this too? I always knew life wasn't going to be easy, people who seem to have everything didn't get to that point because of hand outs or some one always taking the blame/fall for them. They still have to wake up, figure out how to get where they want to be or continue on the ...

Tonight we read several books at bedtime. Typically we start with a new book and end up reading her favorites over and over again until she fell asleep.  Jane usually falls asleep after the first few pages of the first book but Adeline wants to hear every last word.  Our books tonight.. Mommy? A pop up scary story book  Sesame Street fairytale  ABC's Three Bears Halloween Trick or Treat shapes  The Gingerbread Man Just go to bed Runaway Bunny Good night moon I absolutely love reading to my kids, I love that they look forward to it every night and when I'm not feeling well, they love having daddy read the books!  But tonight was different. Adeline is smart, really smart. I don't typically brag but this seems worthy of it. She is only 3 and throughout all of the books tonight she was able to tell me what each shape was, find the shapes by herself, find common themes, express how the book made her feel and even correctly answer basic reading comprehension ques...

Running as fast and far away as I can just to feel like a deer in head lights again. Another subtle reminder of what once was without hesitation or consideration of my feelings then and even now.  I always look for the best in someone especially when they are at their worst. I have no idea what is really going on unless I ask. I cannot judge a person based on their actions alone.  Actions speak louder than words... But words are incredibly powerful.  I hope one day to be remembered as the person I have spent my entire life striving to become, the person I am now. Or that people will try and understand why I made/make some of the mistakes or choices.  I guess I am going about it all wrong. I should remind people more often of the negative things they did once upon a time. But I won't.  I'm an open book and will tell you my story, if you ever care to ask.